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well i needed your strength yesterday. was asked by a neighbor for a donation to the diabetes foundation of america. my first thought was no problem, i know they need to find a cure. the other selfish part of me was screaming on the inside, there was no cure for my brother. it is too late for him. i battled with this for most of the afternoon.  after speaking to vance and kate, they made me understand. that the medicine allowed you to be with us for years longer then we ever would of had you. without the money allowed for research, this never would of happened. i did make a donation, but it made me miss you more. vance did say, you brother would be really proud of you. it still doesnt make it any easier of you not being with us. i guess i am still so angry about your passing. i hope my donation helps to find the cure, so no other family feels this everlasting pain. the worse thing i have ever had to deal with. i wonder if i will ever just accept that you are gone, or if my heart will ever heal. there still isnt a day that goes by i dont pray to you or think about you. miss you more than you could ever imagine. our bond is not broken, we will carry it with us forever. not only were you the best brother, you were my friend, my comedian, my ear when i need to just unleash. now you are my strength. thank you for all you have done.

I missed going to Kellys candy and getting the sugar free candy for your Easter baskets, I made a donation to the fire house instead of your candy I thought that would be nice. God I miss you but I talk to your star every night I am having trouble getting on your site from home I have to get Vance to check it for me. I love you and miss you You are still sitting on the entertainment center with your pictures and anges I am going to wait until we all join you in heaven then have us mixed togother and spread in wildwood. I am still waiting for the sign from you that you are ok. I talk to your star every night that I see it. Love ya my baby boy

Well big bro, I wont be on here to wish you a happy easter, so i am doing that now. we are going away, sort of running from the holiday again. i found sugarfree candy at the dollar store. and guess who i thought of? you of course. you loved candy, and being diabetic, you loved whatever it was you could have. please bless us with safety and love. you are truly missed and i am sorry we never did get the chance to go camping together. you would of had a blast. esp the fishing. i just remembered too this past weekend, that we still have your fishing pole. love ya and miss you.

 

Happy Easter!!

I was reminded of you tonight by a complete stranger walking down the road. I mistakenly thought it was you for a split second. The way you would walk. It just was a special walk. I dont know how to explain it. Boy do I miss you. I know you are always by me. But I am greedy and not sure if it is enough. I want to hear your silly laugh, watch you walk and watch you stoop down. They were all special, Harry style. I love ya big bro, and nothing will ever heal this pain I was given by your loss. Miss you more than I can express.

Well another letter to you. I think you are trying to freak me out when i am sleeping. Your picture necklace hangs next to my bed. I dream that you kneel besides my bed while i am sleeping and just go boo. It always wakes me up. Happened more than once now. But it is a pleasure to see you. Even if it is with your quirky personality. That is what we loved about you. It is amazing what memories we store away. Boy is now the time that you would be over my house sleeping over. We never did get too old for that. Just to hang out with my family. I think now you would of had a great time on the boat and camping. And we would of had your favorite meals, chinese for lunch and piggies in a blanket for dinner. I couldnt stand those, either one. But we always ate them when you were around. I wll be making piggies on your birthday every year. Just to celebrate you.Miss you buddy!! The pain of losing my brother tears through me deeply. The memories make the days a little easier. You are always in my thoughts. Love ya!!