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went through our hometown tonight. and vance thought of you. he told me about the time he came to pick me up and you were walking down the street. he was yelling out your name and you just ignored him. til he pulled over and got out of the car, then you took the ride from him. we laughed about your walk. that is how he knew it was you. who can forget that walk. i remember how you walked everywhere. looking back at it now, i know how you were so damn skinny. from walking. how crazy. we should of gotten you a bike. but hell you might of went further then. at least this way we knew you didnt go too far. i miss you terribly big brother. it is almost a year since you have been gone. it is going to be hard as hell to get through the anniversary days.i neber knew my heart could hurt so much. and nothing can replace the hurt. as much as i try to put my strong face on, i hide behind my pain. i know you are always with me. you are my protection, and strength most days. i asked you to guide my family all the time. you have higher powers now. i know you will put them to good use. love and miss you!!
Mothers day without you was the hardest ever. Dad took me to your favorite place Wildwood I asked you for a beautiful weekend and you came through as always. The rainbow dad said was your mothers day card to me. Parents should never have to bury their child. Well you are not buried you are on the entertainment center with your angels and pictures your nieces made for you. I miss you so very much. What I wouldn't give just to hear your voice one more time. Love ya
today is mommas day. the day you, me and momma should be eatin together. we are making dinner here just for my family. and yes we are having your potatoes. i will eat them and remember how you loved em. boy do i miss those times. you could always pack away some food. make it all worthwhile cooking. i have decided that we will eat your fav meals on your anniversary. piggies in the blanket. just was thinking of you. i had the memory of us all sitting on my truck eating the hoagies. and i didnt want mine anymore. you said give it here. after packing yours away. but it was a good time to see you. felt like it was right then and there again. made me feel ok for a moment. no one understands that this is like a wound that just wont heal. it keeps reopening. but i do find strength from you. and talk to you all the time. i am excited to see the red birds again. kind of like you saying hello to me. miss ya and love you. till next time.
Well big bro, the past few days i have been upset. it dawned on me that you have been gone for ten months now. ten months. i take it day by day, without thinking about the length of time. but damn it hurts, when you realize it. i dont know if everyone feels this way after losing a lost one. i feel like an angel lwas take from the earth. i just want to scream at the top of my lungs all the time about it. asking why?! but i know you are watching over your family, i just miss you. i feel better when i pray to you. like you are always listening. gives me peace in my heart for a small moment. love ya
I started the yard work last weekend and I couldn't help remembering you lugging the dirt for me and digging up the back. Stooping down like you alway's did. I thank you for making it easier for me this year. I miss you so very very much. I don't know if I will ever heal from your loss. So many things every day remind me of you. Sitting out back after dinner is a habit we still carry on for you if the weather permits. I can't wait until the day I get to see you again. I hope you are waiting to give me a big hug. Remember though I am still going to kick your butt for leaving me. I love you
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