Harry Howarth - Online Memorial Website

Well here i sit, a little nervous. i start the new job tomorrow, and am just a wee bit scared. i guess that is how it always it. i know you will hear my prayers in the morning asking for your strength and for you to be by my side. it just makes me feel like you are always with me, and i wont lose a bit of you. plus you were my big brother, you always supported me in my decisions. whether they were right or wrong. i sit here and laugh about the time you packed up my clothes and snuck them out to me. and my medicine. you were such a great person. and you put your own hide on the line for me. gosh, how i would just love to sit here and chat with ya, or play our game together. just to share our memories. we will be together again one day, and boy i can promise you we will sit and talk for hours, over a cup of coffee. so till then brother man, i love and miss you. more than you know. i never knew my heart could hurt like this, when you were taken, i think a part of me left with you. i am sure it is the part that belongs to your siblings. you were a great man, and we were lucky to have you for as long as we did. so i just want to say thanks for all you did and do for me. what a blessing it was to have you in our lives.

Well let me sit and write a letter to you. Hmm what to say, you hear everything thru my prayers to you each morning. Well lets start with this weekend. Boy would you of had so much fun with us. At that auction in Lancaster. It is so great, i know you would of really enjoyed it. I get so much into it, that i just start throwing my number up. Dont really know what i am bidding on, are how much,  at times, but it is part of the game. I think Vance notices when i get too involved in it. But you would be laughing right along with him. I purchased cases of chips and popcorn, you would of dug into it right away. You and your appetite. Gosh how we miss taking you to a buffet. We all would be finished and there goes Harry up for another plate. We swear you had a hollow leg. But at least we got our moneys worth when you came. I sure hope you are still eating like that in Heaven, and all the sweets you want to. Since you werent able to enjoy them here on this earth due to your illness. Well big brother, it just makes me feel good to write to you. miss you more than words can express, but somehow i know you are with me. love ya.

Thirty seven years ago today you were my first born. A gift from God. A year ago he took you home. I can remember when I came to after your birth and they told me you were in a incubator. I asked why did I have a chicken. Your grandmother was laughing at me. You were such a tiny little guy. With your big zorro mask on. according to me you were the most beautiful baby in the whole world. You are still and always be my son. I love you and miss you terribly. You know we adopted a 3 legged dog named nubs. I swear when were were talking about death that one day you said you were coming back as a dog. Well I guess you knew that we weren't going to have any more dogs. So when we saw nubs we thought of you but when he drank my coffee I really thought it was you. I miss you so very very much my heart still breaks today as if it all just happened today. I love you and miss you but I will see you again.

Hi there big brother!  Tomorrow is your birthday, I was so happy to see people lighting candles for you. It means the world to me.  I miss you more than you know. I feel like I say it all the time. It just is so hard to have the anniversary of your death and your birthday so close together. We bought you flowers for your anniversary, and boy did the girls (your neices) have a hard time picking them out. We had to make a deal about that. You would be laughing hard about that one. Kate picked out the flowers for you first, no pink. That was her rule. Britty couldnt wait to get the chance to pick her flowers out for your birthday. We even went out today to get them. We baked two cakes for you. The girls cant wait to decorate them. We are also having one of your favorite meals tomorrow. Piggies in a blanket. You always loved them. Well big brother, I am off to head to bed. I will be back on here tomorrow to wish you a happy birthday. The big 37!!  Love and miss you!

I cannot beleive that it has been a year almost. How do I get through this anniversary? I try to be strong especially for your sister. I miss you more than anyone will ever know. Will the tears ever stop? I know the memories won't. I am glad that you are protecting us from heaven. God made you special.We got a new dog I can see you spaoining him now. He has 3 legs and his name is nubs.He is such a good dog. Its funny but sometimes I think about what you said when you said you were coming back as a dog.We really debated about getting him. I guess you had a hand in us getting him though. I love you and miss you terrible.