Yesterday wasn't the same without you here. I miss you so much every day but holidays are the worst. Especially Christmas. Bruce and I were talking about you yesterday and how you would have had us up early or sitting here waiting for us to get up. You haated getting clothes for Christmas well i didn't get you clothes this year. I got you the coins and a heart. There were just to many leftovers again. I have to stop cooking like you were still here. You would not have liked our little tree or so you father says. You loved the holidays and the expressions on your face when you got something that you wanted or a suprise gift we were talking about the year you got your bike and i left it at grams and how you were disappointed you didn't think you got it. then the excitement you and your sisters had when you got them later on that day. I miss you and I love you but you know that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't talk to you. love ya
Well big bro today is the big day. I cant even tell you how hard this has been on me. I am sure you saw what we gave the girls. Bet you are proud of that. They will have those with them forever. (cant say what it is, just in case mom gets on here.) I just wish you were here so i could of bought you a gift too. But i will be sending your balloons to you today. I just want you to know that you will never be forgotten. I guess that is my biggest fear in all. Mom says I wont forget our memories. All the silly times. And boy you were silly. I guess it is what kept us so close through our lives. And hell, maybe no one else would understand. But we were always laughing.Esp you. Miss that the most. I hope you are in Heaven celebrating with us and our family up there. You are in my thoughts today, just like everyday. Love ya!
Five day's until Christmas. It is not the same without you. I can hear you telling me Mom you have the girls and you have to do this for them, that is what keeps me going. I got the new job, thanks for your help. I know you had a hand in it. Seems funny to be baking and you not snitching the cookies. Even though you knew that you weren't supposed to. I would gladly give you all the cookies you want. I will put someout on the lawn for you near your star. I am hanging your stocking just like usual. I even got you a couple of things to put in it. they will stay there forever and every year I will find something small to put into it and thenpass it on to your sister so she can continue the tradition. I hope you are with all those that love you in heaven give everyone a hug for me. especialy Big Daddy. I know that you are safe with him there. I miss you so much. The girls are coming to visit today and making gingerbread houses. I can picture you helping them. Your nieces were your greatest joy. I miss you more than you will ever imagine. I love ya
Well my family went out yesterday and got our xmas tree. You would of laughed at how long it took us to find it. Seriously like five minutes. I can hear ya now saying, how did you pick a tree out in five minutes? You guys are crazy!! You would be laughing the whole time too.
But we were rummaging for the ornaments in the closet. And I came across the box you gave me with all the snow people in them. Ya know the pots and pans. I was so excited to see pots and pans. You were like uhhh Mare it is not pots and pans, ya need to open it. I was happy it was the snow people, but it was funny how you wrapped it in the box.
I was watching the news this morning about an ice storm. Gosh I wish you were here to tell everyone how we had the one ice storm while we lived in Aston. And how we tried to slide down on our butts on the side yard. I remember even going in and getting a black trash bag.I have to say it is always memories of me and you. I know we will have the chance to make more when we are together again. Until then I will treasure and write them all down. Just to never forget all the times we had together.
Miss you buddy!!
well thanksgiving came and went. I have to honeslty say it was not the same without you. I loved having the family together. But you were surely missed. Matter of fact we just laughed about the leftovers sitting there. Vance was saying he shoud be bagging ALL of them up for you. Our conversation was mainly about you. Funny how that is. I think you were here with us that day. Which is right where you belong. I just tried to stay busy that day. So my emotions would not catch up with me.
We released six balloons to you. The girls wrote on theirs to you. We stayed and watched them all till we could no longer see them. It makes us feel better to send them as a gift to you. You will always get balloons on these special days!
