Had the girls birthday party today, and boy how you were on my mind the way over. I guess that is how it will always be. Just know, you are always with us. May not be here physically, but I know you would never miss these for anything. It is amazing how time flies by, but it still does not get any easier. We saw a sign on the car today that says my treasure is in Heaven. I told the girls yes, my treasure is in heaven, it is my brother! Boy, it is still so hard to talk about they "day". and how I remember sitting out at lunch with a friend saying how beautiful it was. The sun was bright and shiny, warm with some beautiful clouds in the sky. Then I received the phone call. It is crazy how that is.Kate, Kristin and I were talking about that day. and remembering how they knew something was wrong when Vance flew out of the house, telling the girls his best friends would be right over to watch them. Kate told me how she saw tears in her daddys eyes. She has never seen that before. She knew someone passed, but just never thought it was you. So yes, it pains us still this day and everyday. Our hearts will never heal! Love and miss you brother, and hope to have a visit in my dream from you soon. Just want to stand on my tippy toes and give you a big hug! So I am sending one up to you! Love ya!
Had to go get some produce today and just started crying. You used to spend a fortune of my money at the produce stand. Then when we would get home it would be salad time you could eat that big silver bowl full of salad and a jar of green olives in it. I wish you were here so that I could do that for you again. I miss you dearly I still talk to your star every night that you are shining through.It is the time of year that you and I would have carved the punkins "No mom not that one this one" THen I woulod soak the punkin seed in salt water overnight and roast them for you. How you loved your punkin seeds. Every holiday what to get Harry Punkin seeds. I wish I could give you some now. I love you and I know that you are watching over me. You gave me so much during your short time here with us. Yes a few grey hairs but that is ok. I miss you every single day of my life.
I am reading a really good book, about a girl who passes and watches over her family. It makes me wonder if that is how it is. But anyhow, I am thankful for this book as I dreamt of you last night. Just like the old days. You came over to stay at my house, and we had time together. Boy I miss you! It felt good to dream about you, just like we had a visit. I hope to have more of these dreams. You did pass in my dream, which was the sad part. But it really felt like you were right here with me. It was great to see your face, and all of your habits. Esp the one of leaving those socks around. You know what I am talking about. I told Vance about it too. He still remembers those socks. How funny, and great it feels to remember you. Please always stay in my dreams, memories and allow your family to always remember you. That is the scariest part of it all. I want my girls to always know you love them, and are their angel. Love and miss you big brother. Till we meet again!
Well just on here to write another letter to you. Fall days are the best days to sit back and remember, and be thankful for all that we were given and receive daily. One of those gifts we were ever thankful for is you. Tho you were only here a limited amount of time with us (yes 35 years was just not enough) you gave us so many lasting memories, and chuckles. I was sitting back thinking not much longer, (one year and some months) I will be turning 35. I was wondering how I would react to that. Knowing that you passed at 35. I know you would be saying dont worry, but you were taken from us at that age. So it scares me a tad bit to be quite honest.I wonder will I celebrate my 35 or will i just let it go by like a breeze in the wind. I guess only time will tell.
Even tho I love fall days, it brings back the memories of Thanksgiving. I will probably be on here every year, saying how you loved to eat. After the meal, it would be Har you want to take some of this. Yup, and it was esp funny when you would say I want it all. And yes, your little sister,and brother in law was always a sucker for it. We would kindly bag it up for you. Hmmmm, maybe you just had that way with us. You were always willing to give us anything, even if you didnt have it. I find it quite sad tho, that people will look at this sight and not realize what a great man was behind that picture. And that you were, A GREAT MAN. You may not of had the world at your side, but you would never hold back to others. If it was your family or your pets, you spoiled us as much as you were able.
I am gifted to know that people light candles for you. I feel they are a blessing! Alot of people dont realize that just lighting a candle for someone, can lighten the survivors heart for a few moments in time. So please brother, watch over our Godly friends on this sight. They are wonderful! Well I know you still hear my prayers to you everyday, and sometimes I am later than usual. (Dont worry i yell at myself) , but just know you are with me and my thoughts always. You are not only my brother, but now my heavenly Angel. Please give our Grandparents a hug for me, and a pat to your dogs. Till we meet again Brother..........
A Brother Is
Author: Unknown
A brother is someone
with fun-loving ways
with wit and good humor
to spare.
He does thoughtful things
without any fuss
and when you're in trouble
he's there.
A brother is more
than just part of the family..
he's also a friend
through and through.
And that's a description
that certainly fits
a wonderful brother like you.
This fits you completely, always there with a wit of humor to make us smile on the hardest of days, and now you are my strength from above! Miss you!
