Hey guy, Why does it seem like you have ben gone far longer than you have been. I miss our sitting on the step after dinner talking, our coffee togother. I know you are watching over us because this was the first weekend that I can remember that Wildwood bike week had a hurricane. I bet you knew we weren't going this year. To hard to do without you. I miss you so very much. I ust wish you were here so I could say a few things to you in person but that day will come for me. Hey I plan on kicking your butt when I get to heaven for doing this to us. I know that it is better for you where you are now. I am being selfish wanting you here for us . i love ya and will continue your good hearted way's for you
Where has the time gone. It is so hard to beleive that you have been gone 2 months now. I miss you everyday. I have my good days and my bad day's but there is alway's a good morning to you every day each night that your star appears at night I have my talk with you. I keep asking myself why why my first born why did this happen to you. I would have gladly changed places with you if I could have. Why wasn't I home that day why did I have to work? Why why why there are so many of them that I don't have any answers to. I just know that We love you very much. I wish you were still here with us. I am so lost without you. Sometimes I think I hear you in your room. I love you very very much
We took your ashes withus to Wildwood this weekend. It was bitter sweet. We knew that you had some wonderful times at the beach. When you were on the go-carts and couldn't stop the car. The scary rides you went on. I saw you there I am a better person for that. I would give anything to feel you arms around me and hear your voice just one more time. I love you and miss you and that will never end for me until we are togother again. Behave yourself in heaven. I love you
sitting here reading the candles that my daughters have left. makes me remember one of the last times my brother was here at my house. where after so long of not seeing his neices, they were all gathered around him. he was "stooping" (harrys way of kneeling), playing with the girls guessing their names. this little game brought them much joy and a smile to their faces. my brother loved his neices, and to make them smile meant so much to him.
it also reminds me of when harry was here for new years dinner. where he took home all of the leftovers. man could my brother eat. but if he wanted it, we gave it to him. just to bring him a little happiness. he deserved to be happy and food was one of his true loves. he taught us so much in life. boy is he missed!
i sit everyday and think about our younger years. my brother was one of my closest friends. he would listen to me and make me laugh. he didnt always know what to say, but he was a great listener.
afte his passing, i've looked back on life and see how much we did together. he was happy just sitting down and playing a game with you. backgammon was "our" game. i could always count on him playing that with me.i have to say i will never part with that game, nor play it with anyone else. it was our special time together.
i miss my brother more than can be imagined. my heart aches more everyday. i just wish i could have one last conversation, one more laugh or one more hug. i pray he is in my dreams at night to give me peace for a day.
big bro, i miss ya more everyday. i never knew my heart could ache as much as it does. love ya and miss ya!
