Antoher funny memory popped in my head today! Lately I have just tried to think of all the great moments I have shared with my brother all of my life. It makes me get through the day a little easier most days!
Back in 1996 (?), Vance and I lived in an apt in Wallingford PA. Harry spent most weekends there with us. We had a young lady who lived downstairs. She was a sweet lady, very nice. Well Harry was interested in her, sees her outside and tries to make small talk with her. The only thing he could muster up is " so what do you think about this weather?" He comes running upstairs and claimed to have panicked when he started talking to her.That was the only thing he could come up with, how is the weather. It was so like him! To look back and see how this little "panick" moment of his made this day a little easier, is amazing. He brought joy to me today is the smallest of ways! Boy do I miss the silliness he always gave us.
It is so hard tobeleive that you are not racing through the door tripping over the chair and running to the bathroom. I just wish I knew that you are ok. I miss you everday. I wait for my phone to ring and you ask me to stop on the way home and pick you up something. I go to the fridge and the bottle of olives are still there. I still cook as if you were here to eat with us. We miss you everyday there is not a day or hour that goes by that i don't think about you. I know that you are in a better place and you are not suffering but the shelfish part of me wants you here with us..
I was standing here cooking today when a funny memory popped in my head. About 4 months ago, Harry called me at work. He says I have to ask you a question. Well what is is big bro, I said. I am going on a date, what do you do on one? I told him you are calling your sister who has been with the same man for 16 years. I dont know what to really tell you. Leave it to my brother to call me about that. It is those things that I will miss most. He always managed to give me a good laugh at situtaions like that. I can still her his laugh, I hope to hold onto that sound forever!!
It's hard to beleive that today you would have been 36. We didn't have you long enough. I waited for you today to come see what you got for your birthday, you never came through that door. You are in a better place but me heart still aches missing you. Happy birthday to you our son happy birthday to you. I feel like I have lost a piece of me and I have I've lost a piece of my heart. I know you would be saying oh knock that off that mushy stuff. I just hope you knew how much we love you and miss you every minute of every day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SON !!!
Happy Birthday for your 1st Birthday in Heaven. This is a new beginning for you and we know that you are finally at peace. You went through much while on earth and all the pain and suffering are now behind you. The wonderful memories we have of you helps us to deal with your death. I am sure you are having a big party with all of your family that are in heaven with you. Someday we will be there to join you. Oh what a party we will have! May God Bless You and keep you in His care.
