Just wanted to tell you Happy Easter! I hope you have a great day in the heavens eating all the candy and food you love. We never get to old for that easter basket, and mom is always so good at making them.
I just want to thank you for the strength that you have given me during this past month, as it is a very stressful time i am going thru now. But i know our family is always there for us, and you my angel are always there, never too far away. God bless you brother, you deserve all the blessings one has to offer. I love ya and miss ya!
I drove by Kelly's candy on the way hoe from therapy yesterday. I was thinking about all the sugar free candy I would get you for your basket and your punkin seeds and pistachios. I miss doing all of that for you. You would always say that I didn't have to do it. I am so glad I never missed it though. Remember the year you ate it all at once and got the runs. Learned fast from that one didn't you. I miss that simple laugh of yours. I really missed the way you would take care of me when I got out of the hospital. I am doing better and I thank you for that. It is time to turn the gardens. You would always help me with that how we used to love playing in the dirt or going out to buy plants togother. I hope to see your star in the sky soon. I love you and miss you each and every day. You know that when I talk to you all the time.
Hey brother man!! Not much new here, as I am sure you watch over us. It amazes me how the moment i start to lose a little faith, you listen to me and restore it. Might sounds silly, but I just want to thank you for that.
I was driving on 95 this past week, on my way home and a memory of you popped in my head. When you would be a smartypants, and laugh about it, the face you would make with your tongue sticking out. People probably thought i was crazy, as i sat there and laughed out loud in my car. i even came home and told vance about it.
then yesterday your favorite wrestler came on, and we sat here and chuckled about the time we took you to see it live. and you almost ran everyone over. and all we could do was sit back and let you go. your neices got a chuckle out of it too. love telling the stories of the times we had.
Mom came over for lunch last week, was a really nice visit. And we sat back and talked about our penny candy days. we use to always send you to get it. you were always so good about running to the store for us all. i think you just liked to do it. or maybe because you were the older one, and the man of the house, it was just like you to take care of your little sister.
Boy how i miss those days, i hope we can relive em in the heavens. I hope you have a beautiful life in heaven. oh how you deserve to be happy, and lead a happy fulfilling life. i pray you are with our grandparents, surronded by love, and grandmom howarth up there cooking pieriogies and making coffee for you. how we loved to go over her house, she always had coffee on and would allow us to drink it. and her homemade pierogies were always so good. i miss her too. and big daddy, sure wonder if he is sitll smoking those cigars. that was his trademark style.
well brother man, i miss you still more than words can say. you are never far from my heart or my mind. always in my thoughts and prayers. love ya big brother.
It's been a while since I wrote you a letter. We lost our riding friend ANthony, I am sure he is in heaven with you. What a good man, his viewing was last night, and it brought back the memories of the day I found out you passed away. How terrible of a day. I am not sure if I can really handle death anymore. It makes me weak and ill all at the same time. I know it is a part of life, but it is something I dont think one will ever learn to deal with. People say, time heals all wounds. How untrue that is. It does not heal, this is a wound you cannot put a bandage on, or pretend it never happened. It is all too real, that there really is a hole in my heart, when you were taken from us. I love the nights when you are in my dreams. I am sure it is your way of visiting me. I have been asking you to show me a sign, i am sure you will soon. Some days are harder then others. I guess it never will get an easier. I just want you to know, that I dont ever stop thinking of you, not a day goes by that you are not on my mind. And never doubt that you are always in my heart. I love ya brother! God Bless!
Had a memory of us when we were kids today. The times we would go over dads house, he would give us all his pennies. We would wrap them, run across the street to the store for candy. I took your neice out today, Brittany, to get a webkinz, and there at the candie section sat those bubblegum cigars we would always get, and the candy cigarettes. How funny, so I had to explain it to Britty. She first asked did memom know you ate those. I said no, we were at my dads house. Love it when those kind of memories pop in my head. Something so little, that now means the world to me.
I just want to thank you again for giving us support from up above. Mom and the puppy both made it thru surgery well. Mom is a little sore, but she will bounce back quickly, she is a toughy. Have a great Sunday night in Heaven brother man. Love ya
